This & That

I know it's crazy but I can't stop talking about it. It's like parents with newborns. Everyday there are big changes happening and it's just so exciting for me. My yard is growing and I'm learning and growing as well. 

Just this week we harvested 2 zucchinis and a handful of swiss chard from the garden. We has a yummy dinner with it last night. Also, did you know you can eat broccoli leaves? Yes, broccoli has leaves they are the texture of collards and you can cook them the same way. As you may have guesses I harvested the broccoli last week. I planted them too late was was still able to get fruit from the plants. I wasn't so lucky with the cabbage, brussel sprouts or cauliflower. Now I know they need to be planted in winter. 

I could talk to you about composting as well but I'll leave that for another day.

All this to say I'm having a blast growing my own groceries.

Do your interests come in waves?

Mine does. I don't know if it's because I'm Pisces or what but I definitely have seasons. Sometimes mine lasts for years and other weeks to months. For instance, my interests in reading mysteries will last several months then I'm into self help then something else. It all generally comes full circle. I guess it's not my interests that waiver as much as the intensity of my interest. 

Right now my focus is on my vegetable garden. I want to say I'm having so much fun but the truth is it's tons of work. Next season should be easier as I already have the beds and watering systems. I'm a bit of a beginner at all this but it doesn't seem to matter much. I am learning tons. The 4 heads of broccoli that are sprouting up in my garden make it all worthwhile.

Whatever next month holds I look forward to the adventure.

Isn't it funny the restrictions we place upon ourselves. Funny as in strange or odd. I'm chastising myself for missing a blog post last week. The truth is I have no idea if anyone even reads them. It was an arbitrary "rule" I set up for myself to keep me on task and accountable. I don't think there is anything wrong with that at all but belittling myself for not complying is just plan mean.

Why am I so hard on myself yet give others slack whenever possible? Learning to be kind to myself is much harder that I imagined as I expect myself to be better than everyone else. Maybe I'm showing my true colors or flying my freak flag a bit too high. That's ok, I know I can't be the only person who feels this way. 

Being aware is the first step to changing. This is a subject I'll dig deeper into in further posts. For today I hope you can be kind to yourself.

Things don't always go as planned. That's life. For me, being open to change has really made things easier. 

Don't get me wrong, I like to make plans that way I have an idea of what to expect, like is the event inside or outdoors, so I know how to dress. It's not essential but it helps so I don't bring my whole wardrobe everywhere I go. I make loose plans. No, that doesn't mean if "something better" comes along I'll ditch you. I just means that I'm open to change so if it happens it is a smooth transition. 

I'm writing this because my schedule got diverted today and it's in the forefront of my mind. I've had to rearrange or cancel events for the coming weeks. I'm not angry about any of it though I am a tad disappointed. 

This may not be a popular statement but I believe that everything happens for a reason. And if I truly believe that then going with the flow is so important. I understand this isn't for everyone but it's what works for me. 

Well today is Monday and I promised myself I'd write a blog post every Monday. Over the last couple of weeks I've had great ideas, in my humble opinion, multiple times and told myself to wait till Monday to write them down. 

I'll tell you right now that was a mistake. First, I can't remember what I was thinking. Second, why did I hold myself back? I got so caught up in the rules I set for myself I missed some golden opportunities to share my thoughts with you. Scheduling work is a good thing. I just need to remember it's a guideline I set for myself to be more productive in business and to have a work life balance. It is not a crutch or something to hide behind. 

I'm not sure if it's my beautiful, creative, dyslexic brain or what but I do have a hard time sticking to self imposed deadlines. If it's something for someone else you can count on me. I should stop before this turns into something else. 

I think for me, having a more weekly/monthly goals may work out better for me. I'll try it out and let you know.

Slow living came and went once I was back in my everyday. It fascinates me how quickly we jump back into our old routines. It's hard for me to find that balance of making money, setting goals and checking off my achievements. 

I understand the concept of being present and slow living, really I do. I'm just finding it hard to keep that as my mindset all day every day. I guess I have improved as I'm noticing often that I'm not being present. 

It's a start I know. Just like everything else in my life I want to be perfect at everything I try the first time. Unrealistic I know but a girl can dream. Yes, I'm chuckling at myself right now. They say it's good to have goals though I'm pretty sure this isn't what they meant. (whoever they are)

For now I will do my best to stay in the moment and bring myself back to the present when I start to wander.

My birthday is this coming week and I'd almost forgotten. Thank you bestie for reminding me. The thing is I love my birthday. I usually celebrate the entire month of February. The last couple of years I haven't felt much like celebrating. I have no idea way, I'm just unmoved by it. 

I have always dreamed of getting away on a retreat(silent) but never made it happen until now. My birthday present to myself is to get away for a couple of days not far from Dallas with one of my dearest friends. I don't have an agenda other than to be mindful. I get so caught up in achieving daily goals that I'm not always present. 

I have no idea how this will go but I'm happy to try something new and push my comfort zone. I'll let you know how it turns out.

I have decided that I would start blogging again and I'd post every Monday.  Today that idea seems rather ambitious. I have a blog so why not use it? I could have wimped out and just post info about my classes but that's a horrible precedence to start.

'm using this blog to write down all my thoughts, feelings and ideas so I have it all in one place and I get it out of my head. I thought about sitting it to private so only I could see it , but I realized that if somebody stumbles across these pages they may not feel so alone, so I made it public.

Today I'm not sure what's in my head. So many contrasting thoughts and ideas, it is frustrating. There is not much I know about the world around me at the moment. I do know its a beautiful day today. The sun is shining with a bit of a breeze and it sounds like the wind is singing to me. It's not a song I've heard before though I know message. Rejoice in the beauty around you. That's what I intend on doing. Tomorrow is another day.